The meaning of Death

Death, the end of life. A state where your brain and heart do not function anymore. It is a hard situation to be in, losing someone you love and care about. It's sad and nobody would want it to anyone, no matter what the situation is.

Death has already hit our family twice, within 2 months, within this very summer that I am home. On May 13, 2009 , I lost my dearest grandma who had taken care of me since I was 5. She taught me how to speak chinese and hokkien. She picked up english so she could communicate with us better. She was always there by the door, waiting for us to return from school. If we were even late by 5 min, she panics. Whenever I come back from school, she would be there waiting, with food prepared on the table. All my favorite food too. Even when she was sick with cancer (twice), she still managed to put on a strong face. Maybe she didn't want us to worry about her. When I left to US 2 years ago, she said something that I wished she never said. It has become reality now. She said she would be gone when I come back this summer. But why did she have to leave right before I came home? Just another week or so. Anyway, her last words on the phone when I called was "don't worry about me. I'll be fine. thanks for calling, be good now. study hard. " I remembered her reaction when she first saw me on skype. It was precious..haha..she never knew she could see me within the 2 years I was away. May 13, while I was on my trip to MA-NY-DC, she passed away. In her sleep. I only knew it on the day before my flight home.

Anyway, exactly 2 months later, my grandaunt (her younger sister) passed away too. It was too sudden. She was always so healthy and kind. I remember the days she always brought us homemade Bak Kut Teh from Klang. It was delicious! They said it was her heart problem and depression. Maybe her heart couldn't take it, I mean the lost of her older sister. Maybe. July 13, 2009. Exactly 2 months! such coincidence huh?

Why? Why does this type of thing keep happening to our family? I wish all these would stop. 2009 has been hard on all of us, esp my mom. I just wish things would be better soon!

Michael Jackson (1958 - 2009)

King of Pop, Michael Jackson
(August 28, 1958 ~ 2009)It's kinda sad to see such a great singer pass away.
He was determined to achieve his dream as a great singer, and he did!
He became very popular and white too..
His songs were unique and irreplaceable.
His dance moves were, well, I don't think words could replace those.
Yes, Michael Jackson did made mistakes in his life,
but we are all human right?
everyone makes mistakes.
I feel bad for his 3 beautiful children,
I pray that God will help them through this tough times.
May MJ rest in peace.
I think people will remember him for ages to come.

Cut cut cut

I've learned to cut hair today. haha..all these while, I've been cutting my own hair by trial and error, but today, I finally went to the salon near my house where I used to get my haircut as a little girl to learn the techniques of hairstyling. lol..Thanks to both aunties who used to cut my hair ever since I was 4? They volunteered to teach me and my sis their techniques before we leave to the States again and they even bought us all the appropriate equipments: scissors, wigs, clips and cloth. It looks fanciful and it costed us RM700 for everything. It's not too bad since other places are charging RM2000 for basic lessons.

Today, we learnt to cut straight cuts and bob style. I managed to pick it up quickly since I had experience of cutting my own hair for the past 2 years (kedekut right? it cost too much to get it trim in the States!) I managed to cut and practised 5 times whereas my poor sis only did 3 1/2 because of her crooked finger. She better improve her skills because next time, it's not a wig she will be cutting...but my hair...lol....maybe i should open a barber shop soon?

Tomorrow will be lesson 2..wonder what I will learn this time. hehe..I'm excited! Oh, and I'm thinking about getting highlights...since my hair is now burgundy, they told me to get blonde highlights...hmm...what do you guys think? blonde or redish or what color?

Burgundy

(no, i did not use Clairol, I used Wellas)

So, burgundy is not exactly a great color for me. It was suppose to turn out a little redish and purple-ish but i don't see much of a difference on my hair..sigh...my hair is still as black as ever, with only few stripes of burgundy. hehe..oh well, i think i wanna try red next time..lol...

起立，行礼，钟老师早安。

起立，行礼，钟老师早安。

Those are the first few words I hear every morning.
Having the kids bow and greet me was a strange feeling at first,
but it's kinda amusing too. hehe...
The kids were pretty loud and noisy, very different from the time I was in their place.
But, they adjusted to me..hehe..
a fun and interesting bunch of kids, that's about all I can say about them.


But, I am truly disappointed with how Chung Kwok School has become after all these years of being a well-known school. Discipline, organization and management has gone down the drain since the arrival of the new headmaster, Mr Chan Seng Choy. I don't understand how can the government put such a stupid guy to be in charge of such a great school. The school's reputation has gone down the drain....way way way down!!!! sigh..such a huge disappointment. What's worse is that he can't even behave like an adult..makes me wonder if he has any sort of mental problem actually....oh, and he threathens and canes for fun too..

Happy Father's Day!

HAPPY FATHER'S DAY!

daddy peeling crab for me! hehehe

Thank you, daddy for everything you've given us
for all the sacrifice you made for us,
for the days you spent time with us,
for the food you provide us daily,
for the ups and downs in our lives,
for the love and support throughout our lives,
for your confidence in us,
even when we do not believe in ourselves,
for the time you are always there for us,
no matter what the situation is..
for the trust and faith you have in each of us,
for your unselfish love for us,
for your constant encouragements and challenges,
for giving us this very happy blessed family...

Happy Father's Day, daddy!
I love you~~~
(if you read this, of course... =p)

Roller coaster ride

It is amazing how life can take a turn so quickly. Since I've been back for the past 3 weeks, so many things and emotions had taken over. There was:

The Happy:

The sad part =(

The road trip

The food:


The smile:

It has been a roller coaster ride. Words could never express my true feelings but God knows what goes through in my life each day. I thank Him for each brand new days, for my beloved family, relatives and friends. Without His grace and mercy, I would not live to see another day. Parents are a blessing, so is family, friends and everyone we meet. There is a purpose to everything that happened in our life--the sad, happy and the in-between(s)..